Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com These past few days I have not felt like writing. Nor have I wanted to pray. In truth, I haven’t had the desire to even be with God. I have been quick to rage and undeniably angry. I have had flashes with thoughts so vivid it felt like an alternate … Continue reading An Illusion I’ve Mastered
I spent most of the afternoon cleaning my bedroom. Cleaning turned into reorganizing, rearranging, and deciding if things were really needed. The afternoon turned into the evening which led to early morning hours and now a moment to write my thoughts on a phrase that circulated throughout my process. Most have heard of the cliché, … Continue reading Cleanliness Next to Godliness?
When I was younger, I remember asking my mother how she named me. Whenever this conversation came up, my older sister would always chime in and exclaim that she was the one who named me after her friend who passed away a few months prior to my birth. My mother indulged my sister’s fantasy of … Continue reading For My Namesake
Photo by Sarah Glover I searched for you in so many places, in so many ways. I thought you were hiding but in truth I was blind. Blinded to what I thought I should see and cold to the feeling you radiated. Always there and never faltering, I made a mistake or two. Before you, … Continue reading Allowance
Photo by Maksim Romashkin on Pexels.com I often feel lost in my every day. Daydreaming and distracted, my thoughts race at a million miles an hour with no signs of stopping. Unsure of my footing, I will seek stability wherever there’s solid ground. Being lost in such anarchy reminds me of how small my position … Continue reading Lost Sheep Come Home
Flames consume the soul until the minute of redemption. She is swallowed whole as he reaches for her hand. Try harder, He says. Push back, He says. The fighting is tiresome and my eyes grow blurry. The days become fussed and I want to remember as I was before. Remember. Remember. Remember. Seek shelter when … Continue reading Set Free
Self-love is foreign. a passenger to my right but never at my side. I'll hate me today but I'll hate less tomorrow. Sit forward with your back straight. A Queen amongst His kingdom. The foresight is becoming. March forward through the darkness and find your crown. Move mountains amongst men and see colors merge through … Continue reading Merge Through Glory
I broke a plate while washing dishes. My hand gave way and I watched as the white porcelain shattered in the sink basin. The water flowed from the sink, gently caressing each jagged piece. I could not help but think of myself as those roughed-edged fragments. You see, I have struggled with my own demons … Continue reading Testimony: Part One
One of my favorite books as a kiddo was, "Are You There God, It's Me, Margaret" by Judy Blume. The story followed Margaret Simon as she came of age after moving to the suburbs. Margaret speaks with God throughout the novel to discuss everyday milestones that we all suffered through as preteens. Raised in a … Continue reading Are you there God? It’s me, Sarah.
Photo by Vanderlei Longo on Pexels.com Spiritual recovery, not that I understood the assignment. Each day a new chapter, a new reconciliation. To forgive those who have wronged without the knowledge of forgiveness in the light of darkness as my heart longs for you. Going beyond my obligation to redefine the silver lining. Forgive me, … Continue reading Sinned.